I found the Site Tripawds and this is an incredible place, as I have already spoken about it, in my previous post about " My Blogging Experience ..... So Far !! " So I will not go into how this Site has made this Blogging Idea, really opened up and turned, into something wonderful. It is so much more than that, those people who know me well, will actually know something about me that I don't like to dwell on, or normally even mention.
But I feel that for this Blog it will hopefully explain why, this Blogging Experience has had such, a profound effect on my life in General. Those people who know me will already know, how much this Blogging has affected me, and it has given me a new lease on life. The fact is that I have been ill for many years, and I have a variety of illnesses as I seem to collect them, like most people collect ornaments !!
But in short as I could continue on for pages :)
I suffer from Rheumatoid Arthritis, Fibromyalgia these were brought on, because when I worked as a Microbiologist in a Hospital. The Machine that we used to test for Tuberculosis was faulty, and it led to me becoming infected with Tuberculosis of the Liver ( Impressive I know !! ) This TB of the Liver led to Adhesions inside my entire Stomach etc area's, so Basically My Entire body from Waist to Neck, is like Sellotape sticking to Sellotape !!
Lovely I know and also Bloody Painful !! So A Lot of Pain Killers Later !!
Now I manage to hide this fact quite well from People, who I meet in my General Day to Day Life, but those who know me, will often come in and Just Look at me .............. and then say nothing !! So I normally guess that I must be looking Absolutely Stunning :) or just Bloody Awful !!!
They are also totally surprised that I started this Blogging Lark, as I'm normally in Bed by 4pm, ( Such a Party Animal !! ) and I also never answer my phone, and I'm normally always in my home !! So the fact that I'm talking to people at all !
It's amazing !! ...... and I must admit I'm having a Ball !!
Just Like My Fizzle's !
LIVE and LOVE LIFE and ENJOY !!
What I wanted to explain is WHY I'm sometimes away for a Few Day's, and why this Blogging has effected me so much :)
Hopefully it also explains why my animals are so important to me, and when I say that Fizz was My Life
............... I truly Mean that ........ Fizz was My Life .........
The reason for me telling you this is simple it's just to inform you, those of you who read my Blog's, will hopefully understand WHY ? I'm away for a few days or I don't get straight back to you, when any of you send messages or questions.
It's NOT because I'm Ignoring you or have given up on my Post's, it's just that if I do too much. Then I have to take a lil rest and recover, as I can only continue without repercussions for ONLY SO LONG !! I was worried that some of you may get fed up, if I don't post quickly enough or I'm out of touch, So I felt it was only right to explain WHY ??
If I do too much then I also get to the point that My Family, will actually refuse me any LAP TOP ACCESS !!! As they can see when I have done too much, and they don't like to see me any worse than I normally am :)
So to be fair they look out for me ...... When I don't look out for Myself !!
Fizzly and her " Baby " My Daughter Emma xoxox
My Fizzly took her role of watching out for her Family !! As much as My Family have learn't to Look out for ME !!!
When I lost my Fizzly it has affected me more than anything else, she and I had this Connection, and ability to talk without noise. When she decided that she had, had enough and wanted to Move Onward, with her Journey..... She did it with a courage that I could only hope to gain, and she did it with a Total Bond of Love, even in her Pain she acted like she was fine with My Children and Only Lay down next to me, when the children had left her sight ........
When Ben and Emma came back into the room, she would sit up and act like nothing was wrong .... She Loved them so much that, she neglected her own pain and worried about them ....... All the Picture's I have of Fizz apart from the one when she First Came home, After her Operation ........ the Only Other photo's, that I have of my Brave Girl after her Amputation and Cancer, were all taken after she'd made the decision, as she was just so tired .....
So all these photo's were taken, an hour or so before she took her Bravest Step, so these Picture's have a mixed emotions when I look at them. But I see the love she had for my children, and that she was ready and willing to move onwards. But one of My Biggest Regret's and Something that I Wish, I'd been Told and something I would tell, Everyone who reads this Post, Is Please Take lots of Pictures, Film's and whatever else you can.
Because they are your memories and its something, that I will wish to my own last breath. I wish that I'd taken some of my Brave Girls battle, because she was Incredible, and she brought me so much Joy :) She was the Great Love of My Life and more than that.....
She was My Truest Best Friend and I Loved her Completely.My Animals, Hubbie and Children, they are the only reason why I continue to fight, and wake up, Get Up and Live and Love each Day !!
They are My Reason for ............... BEING !!!
My Fizzly and her Bestest Mate, My Son Ben xoxox